Hurting

Why am I put in a world where all I do is damage

All because of me the one's I care for can't be happy

I never meant for anything to go this way

I just want their happiness, nothing more and nothing less
Im in the way so maybe I should part
And let them live their life with calmness in heart
Im hurtin' inside and no one knows why
No one will ever understand so why should they care
I know it will hurt for some certain reasons
But I can't sit and cry all my life about it
I want them to give each other a chance
And let them know that I will move on no matter what
But till then they need to know
Thay they shouldn't walk away from each other just cuz of me
I think I'm hurtin' more than them
Cuz I'm the one that made the first choice
It'll be hard but I know I'm doing right
Cuz I will never help what other people feel
So when you two read this someday
Just know I was willing to let you guys try
And god if you can hear me
Please let them live together happily

I wrote these lines because of whats going on in my life right now. Like I mentioned before the guy I have crushed on, Ramon likes my home girl Jessica. I knew Jessica liked him too but she didn't admit it 'till Wednesday. The main reason they don't want to go out is because of me. Ramon knows what I feel for him and so does Jessica, of course. But I feel bad because they can't be happy cuz of that. So I tried to talk to both and told them that they should give each other a try and that they shouldn't worry about me cuz I know I will move on! I can't sit and cry all my life about it! Right? I just want the best for both and I feel like they really don't understand that. But right now we all in a big discussion and we aren't talking as much. But I'm trying to get things fixed. I got mad love for my home girl cuz she's been there for me in the most toughest times of my life and even though I put myself down sometimes she's always there to cheer me up. And for now that's all I got to say.