So Much Going On

Well, everything started on my dadz b-day. As I said before my best friend is Jessica. And I wanted her to meet the guy I have liked for almost 5 years (Ramon). And well she did on my dads b-day party. We were all there, and I kinda noticed Ramon would look at her in a way that you would like some one. I really didn't say anything about it, all I did was keep it to myself. Then my brothers b-day came, april 1st, and I would notice that he would flirt a lot with Jessica. I got pissed but I kept it all koo. Then it came to the point where I couldn't help myself and I just fell into tears. I never told anyone buy my brother Carlos the reason why I was cryin. And I guess now you can guess what the reason is. That he likes her, or atleast at that time I knew he did but I didn't dare ask him. So this was like a thing that made me think more about things. I figured since the beginning that things between me and him would never work out. And I would just rather be his friend and not go out with him then break up and never talk to each other. You feel me? Well on last Sunday, umm april 22, my bro carlos, jessica with her mom n broz, ramon, yinnette n me went to a sweet sixteen. There I knew for sure Ramon liked her. But then again I never asked him. Then I finally did on monday, april 24. He told me the truth that he did like her. What did I tell you!! And then I confessed I did like him and he said he was sorry because he didn't feel the same way. I was hurt but I felt happy though cuz I got things straight with him. And now I can just look at him and know the truth and just be koo friends. Now I'm just feeling straight and I honestly don't wanna look at any other guy but mah boii Franko. Umm I havnt said anything but I have one. But its cyber dating though. Do ya'll think thats right? bout having a cyber boii? I mean we make 2 months today and he hasn't abused of me and I will never. He lives in Mexico. But yea what you guyz think??

Things Gone Wrong...once again

Well, I'm late on this, but on Saturday, April 1, 2006 it was my brother's brother's birthday and his girlfriend's mom birthday as well. Well we gave him and her a surprise birthday party which came out really good. Well the guy I have a huge crush on...for more than lik 5 years...lols...went. Jessica, my friend I was talking about earlier, also went. Well yeah like I said she has a boyfriend and they had gotten into a fight so she wasn't really happy about dancing. I was dancing with my crush's sister all the way through. But earlier I was flirting with my crush and instead of leaving us two alone my friend jump in. So I was lik WTF and just left then. My friend knows real good that I really like this guy so I don't know why she was flirting with him. But yea the dancing came and I ofcourse started dancing with my crush. Then Jessica really not knowing how to, had my crush teach her and dance with her. Then later on I just left him and her alone and went on dancing. Then I was like ok where's Jessica and Ramon? They was sittin in the couch the whole time. Talking. I went near them like two times and they just ignored me so I was like fuk it then. So I just danced with Ramon's, and went my own way. I was thinking that maybe Jessica would ask for me but she didn't. I went outside because I really felt like she was betrating me. And since almost everyone that knows her now likes her better and leave me out. And thats exactly what I felt with Ramon. I felt like crying but held back my tears. But then Ramon's sister noticed I was gone and went out to look for me and cheered me up a bit. But she doesn't know why I was feeling upset. We cut the cake and then I just stood there to see if Jessica was gonna say somethin, but she sat back down with Ramon. So I went into the bedroom and then my tears were really close in coming out. My bros bro came in and told me wat was wrong. I told him my contacts were hurting and he said contacts my ass wats wrong! LOL Well he knows wat I feel and he had a feelin why i was upset. So i just cried and cried and he kept tryin to cheer me up. Then his girl or Ramon's sis came so Carlos (my bros bro) said that they should leave me alone. So they left and then I could hear Ramon and his family leaving and then finally Jessica came out looking for me. It looked like she wanted to cry cuz her boy had called and she didnt pick up. But WTF look wat she did to me and she tellin me her shit. I dont know wat to do know. But I'm thinkin I need to move on cuz i know Ramon probably likes Jessica. So yea I just uhhhhhhhhh I dont know wat is going to happen from now on.