Hurting
Why am I put in a world where all I do is damage
All because of me the one's I care for can't be happy
I never meant for anything to go this way
I just want their happiness, nothing more and nothing less
Im in the way so maybe I should part
And let them live their life with calmness in heart
Im hurtin' inside and no one knows why
No one will ever understand so why should they care
I know it will hurt for some certain reasons
But I can't sit and cry all my life about it
I want them to give each other a chance
And let them know that I will move on no matter what
But till then they need to know
Thay they shouldn't walk away from each other just cuz of me
I think I'm hurtin' more than them
Cuz I'm the one that made the first choice
It'll be hard but I know I'm doing right
Cuz I will never help what other people feel
So when you two read this someday
Just know I was willing to let you guys try
And god if you can hear me
Please let them live together happily
Im in the way so maybe I should part
And let them live their life with calmness in heart
Im hurtin' inside and no one knows why
No one will ever understand so why should they care
I know it will hurt for some certain reasons
But I can't sit and cry all my life about it
I want them to give each other a chance
And let them know that I will move on no matter what
But till then they need to know
Thay they shouldn't walk away from each other just cuz of me
I think I'm hurtin' more than them
Cuz I'm the one that made the first choice
It'll be hard but I know I'm doing right
Cuz I will never help what other people feel
So when you two read this someday
Just know I was willing to let you guys try
And god if you can hear me
Please let them live together happily
I wrote these lines because of whats going on in my life right now. Like I mentioned before the guy I have crushed on, Ramon likes my home girl Jessica. I knew Jessica liked him too but she didn't admit it 'till Wednesday. The main reason they don't want to go out is because of me. Ramon knows what I feel for him and so does Jessica, of course. But I feel bad because they can't be happy cuz of that. So I tried to talk to both and told them that they should give each other a try and that they shouldn't worry about me cuz I know I will move on! I can't sit and cry all my life about it! Right? I just want the best for both and I feel like they really don't understand that. But right now we all in a big discussion and we aren't talking as much. But I'm trying to get things fixed. I got mad love for my home girl cuz she's been there for me in the most toughest times of my life and even though I put myself down sometimes she's always there to cheer me up. And for now that's all I got to say.
posted by latinachik4lif @ 11:11 AM
4 Comments:
You certainly have exhibited a high level of maturity in making this decision about two people that you care about, and for that, I give you props.
However, make sure you are prepared for the awkward feelings that will surface, if in fact, they take you up on your offer. I don't believe that these feelings will last; however, be prepared for them and do not expect for them to not at least, cause some friction in your heart. After all, you do have a crush on him.
I also highly respect both of them for honoring you so very much that they will not go forward in respect for your feelings. All of you are fortunate to know each other.
Fortunately, you have youth on your side. It does not seem like it now, but sooner than later, you will meet another young man for you who will indeed be the cat's meow in your eyes! And for this one, his purring will be reserved just for you.
@ p
Thanks and I guess you are right. I can't live all my life crying about this when I'm only 16 and there is so much to come. And yes I know I will have awkward feelings but I am ready and like you said they can't last forever. And yes I am really lucky cuz I have a good friend I never thought of having, and for meeting a great guy that deserves everything in the world. Unfortunately I ain't everything for him, and she definetly is everything for him so I'm glad they are together. They make a good couple and both are intelligent and I just wish them the best.
People around me that know whats going on think all I am doing is hurting myself but I'm not. I want the best for my friend and I think he will do a really good job on it. And I also want the best for him and I think she will do a good job in treating him right. I don't wish them bad things at all. I wish them the best and just hopefully they understand me.
Lo siento chica.
I was stopping by to see what was up with you, but I see all is not well in your world. I know that has got to be tough, but its gonna be alright. I hate that you are feeling so down.
I agree with P, you are being very mature about this. You wanting to see them happy even though you like Ramon really shows that you are a good person, so remember that.
@ n search
yea i nou but its hard. but i can't feel all down all my life so i just wanna take it easy. but one thing i aint liking about this is now theres alot of lieying goin on. i aint that stupid but i can tell. but w/e my life has always been putting me down so i dont really care.
@ tamiko
ure right. we alwayz struggle but hopefully one day we can find the right guy. but till then you gonna go through some tough times right? hopefully all goes well.
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